I feel like I'm at a point where I don't really know myself, my desires, or my future anymore. Everything feels blurred and mixed together. There are things I desperately want, but I’m terrified of being disappointed again. I am afraid that chasing my dreams might drag me back into that same darkness era I fought so hard to escape.
But at the same time, I know I cannot just stay in my comfort zone. A safe space can be deceptive; it makes me complacent and tricks me into forgetting my dreams, making it feel like everything is already done and there is nothing left to chase.
So here I am, still questioning my life and doubting my choices. Is it wrong? Is it right? I don't always know. But in the midst of the confusion, I have to keep anchoring myself. I have to remind my heavy heart that as long as I am walking on Allah's path, everything will eventually be okay.
You question yourself.
You doubt your life.
You feel miserable some days.
This means you're still open to growth.*
*) Brianna Wiest 101 Essays that will Change the way You Think (p. 45)
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